I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs, but i'm afraid that someone else will hear me.
You can only blame your problems on the world for so long before it all becomes the same old song.

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Pamphylia; 15 years old this 2011; Singaporean; Currently studying in Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Primary School, Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary school; class 1 Peace,2 Peace,3 Peace; BANDgeek♥!

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Sunday, August 29, 2010, 6:39 AM
After what seems forever.

OH MY GOSH. It's been a month since I last blogged. Pfft! It seems like everytime I blog,the contents always talk about me not blogging in forever. Hah. Finally relinked and replied to everyone who commented at my Tagboard. So sorry for replying after what seems forever,till you probably don't remember what you even commented. Just so you know,I wasn't ignoring you or anything. Haven't been to my blog in a long time. Approximately a month. Yeah,i know. I'm a bad blogger. :)
So...the most interesting thing recently? Well,let's say someone stole my phone. Yeah. Sucks being me at times like that. Remember in my previous posts when I said I was going to post pictures? Well,they are all in my phone. So goodbye pictures. AND the pictures of Baloo is like super cute?! Should have uploaded them earlier. Blame my laziness. I feel darn bad for losing my phone and my mum being quite nice about it all. That was my birthday present like this year. Maybe I should go get a Tiger Tag or something. Hah,kidding. I wonder if it works all over the world. Well,whoever is holding on to my phone better treat it right or if i find out who... basically,you're dead. DEAD. yes,DEAD.

Other than that, I think everything else is pretty alright? Have been having lots of tests in school recently. Gaaah. Teachers' Day is in two days. Hope they don't give homework. HEHHEH. >w<  But I think that homework will still be given. Oh wells. Oh, have i mentioned how much i love FOB? Well,nooow you know! Haaah. It's sad they're on hiatus. Nooo~! Oh,you know I just cut my fringe? Okay,that totally had no link. Just thought of that and typed. HAHA. x)  Back to the random subject,I thought it was going to turn out horrible and I was like "uh-oh,how? What if it turns out horrible? Clip up? Let it be? Go to the place where you cut your hair and get it fixed?" Luckily afterwards it turned out alright after I cut and adjusted. :D
Oh,one last thing. I changed my blogskin! Yay. This is the first one i have worked on. So far,it has turned out pretty good. Took a lot of time to complete it though. Perhaps I would make a few small changes,or maybe I won't. See first. :)

There's school tomorrow. And band in the morning. Oh well. There's nothing else for me to say except omgosh I just remembered - SCOTT PILGRIM! <3 Yeah, I've read the first and second comics. I just realised that the library has the third to fifth one too but they are only available at two libraries. I currently have no time to go there to borrow... Anyway,I can't wait for the movie to be released in S'pore! :D I have a feeling it's going to be great. Anyway, I better stop blogging now. There's nothing much else anyway. Bye! :D




Saturday, July 24, 2010, 10:40 AM
Courage&alexevans.

Okay,so here is the second post. Yepp. I think i'm like the cowardly lion from the Wizard of Oz. I NEED courage. hah. It's like the chance is right infront of me and people around me are like thinking hey,just grab it. But it's just...so difficult. Sigh. In a way. Whether you understand it or not. Not everything that happens needs to have a reason,but everything you do has a consequence. Sigh. Hmm. You know,Alex Evans is just sooo...inspirational. Well,to me at least. I mean,it's like his words are pretty much truly meaningful. Some sentences,I find really meaningful,put together from his most recent blog post named 'fight like a warrior':

"i’ve somewhat come to understand what the whole idea behind it all happens to be. people will always get in your way, because after all, we all want to succeed, or i’m assuming so. and sadly enough, there isn’t enough room for all of us to succeed in our society, and the only person in charge of whether you will succeed or not is you. yes, you! all you. and of course, in order to succeed at something, you’ve got to be good at it, and you need to be focused. the most depressing thing is when you hear people say “i wanna be famous” or “i wanna be rich” or “i wanna be a movie star”, what the F does that even mean? people aren’t rich just to be rich, there’s always a reason behind it. to people you’re just another random person on this planet, so your transfer is the last of their priorities. i had to contact the job here about five times, and meet with them in person about three times before i finally got the job. and yes, it did make me feel unwanted, like they didn’t care, didn’t wanna hire me. i was being dramatic and all. but instead of giving up, i just kept trying until i was finally given a starting date. i probably wasn’t their first priority, but that doesn’t mean they didn’t wanna hire me. so if someone says no to you, don’t take it too seriously, just prove yourself to them, and then see what happens. and same story goes with the second job i’m currently trying to get. three weeks pass by, no call back. i freak out. feel unwanted again. feel depressed. feel annoyed. feel upset. don’t wanna call back cause i don’t wanna look obsessed and annoy them. then this morning i was like “so what? why not just call.” took some courage, but i did. then i find out that the old manager was actually fired, and that they hadn’t had access to the administration files and stuff yet. funny eh? i almost peed my pants. all that stress, and for what? nothing. nothing was ever about me. nothing was wrong with me. i was given a new interview date, which will be on monday. hopefully i’m lucky and get the job. so be a warrior. your own little warrior, fighting for all these things you want. and it will get you places. i promise."

Yeah... It kind of like helped me,in a way. However, life is just... sad. It's pretty much like The Sims. Well The Sims was made to be life-like so, yeah. You can get a real good career with your talent. But to get higher promotions, you have to make friends with people around. Why? Well you see, if you had to choose between a real good friend whom you know and a complete stranger, you would choose your friend right? & why is that so? Because you're afraid you would get dissed by your friend? NO. It's not that. If your friend is really a friend, he/she would've understood that you had a reason. The truth is,you just don't understand that person enough. Yeah. And that's the way life works. But I don't know. Well I guess everything happens for a reason,right? That's the one line that gets me through almost everything all the time. Ah wells. Think I better go now... It's getting late. Bye! :')





10:28 AM
hey.

Hey. I know i haven't blogged in like forever. But it doesn't really matter anyway. Well, many things have happened since i last blogged and i don't know where I should start.

Well,for starters, during the June holidays, I went to Penang with my family. Yeah...First time there. It was actually rather fun I guess. Oh,and I bought the rainbow ice-cream (i forgot what's it called) everyday I was there because it was cheaper. Hehe. :P And uh... I visited relatives there. Didn't know I had relatives there but yeah. First time meeting them...Nice people. :) They have this really adorable dog called Baloo. The owner told me that there was this day,when his kids were small,he brought them to art class. Then he saw a group of people crowding somewhere. Then he went to see I think. There was this dog and her puppies. They had been bitten by a... Raccoon? Snake? Some animal which I can't remember now. Dammit,should've blogged when I remembered... But anyway, back to the story. So the dog was the only one that didn't get bitten or anything. So the uncle took him in. Then his family and him named it Baloo,like the bear in jungle book,because it's stomach has the different shade of colour like the bear. hahaha. I have a few pictures of it but i think i'll post another time. (:

Today I went to eat buffet with my family. The food was pretty good. Took one picture. Hehheh. There was sashimi! :D Yum. And of course lots of other food. ^¬^ Oh yeah, isn't this cute? -> ^¬^ . Ahahaha. Then I met up with Daphne and Elena. On Friday,after band Daphne and I went to Elena's house there and we made a card together for Yoo Jin's birthday. Well the card is belated though,since her actual birthday was on Thursday. I couldn't meet up with them to hand her the card today cause I had to go buffet with my family. Haven't seen everyone together in awhile and I thought there was a need to anyway.  Sooo,Eli and Daph went ahead to give the card. And thennnn when I was done with the buffet, I went to meet them at Junction 8. Hahaha. Daph and I took funny pictures of Eli when she was eating. Hahaha. And we took pictures together too. Perhaps I shall update them another day. :L
And well other stuff have happened too... but there isn't anything interesting. Or perhaps I just can't remember... Sigh. I'm actually really sad&confused right now. Hah,it seems like i blog everytime i'm sad. A place to type out all my thoughts and emotions. Pretty good. But of course, i'm not going to type when i'm angry. It's not nice to type things when you're angry. Anger gets the worst of you. Jealousy does too. Urgh. Anyway, that was just babbling. Hmm...I can't remember how things were like in the past. Memories fade away with time,people change unknowingly. Did everyone else change or isit just me? :S I honestly don't know. Things just seemed so different last time,compared to now. I don't get any of this. Friends that were once oh-so close is now what... Like they have never met you before in their entire life. Or like they were never once close with you. Why do friends grow further and further apart. Ahh. Here's a poem I find really meaningful:




"People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON...It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be.

The, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. Sometimes they die. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. Your need has been answered, and now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON...It is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant."





Nice huh? I still have a lot to say and I think it's going to be very long so I've decided to split up this post into two. ^¬^ Well... I guess this is it for the first post!





Thursday, April 8, 2010, 6:40 AM
fever. ):

Hello. Today isn't my lucky day. So i started feeling unwell in school during science lesson(which is before reccess). During reccess,i took my temperature and it was 38.8 degrees celcius! ): I could already feel that i had fever but i wasn't that sure. unfortunately,it was. ): It just felt really weirddd. After reccess was geography lesson. Mr Yuan spent 30 minutes scolding the class and fortunately,he didn't scold me when i rested my head on the table. Then we used the remaining 5 minutes to write mindmap. Luckily he didn't teach. Or else i would not have been able to understand anything. So after that was Home Econs. We were supposed to have our home econs today. But then I went home. I went to the general office to sit there and wait for my mum. Then i went home. Slept for awhile then my mum took me to see the doctor. The doctor said I have throat infection which lead to my ulcer and cough or something. Gahhhh. I don't think i'm going to write anymore.I can't concentrateeeeee. And my head hurts. I just took my temperature and it is 38.1 degrees celcius ): No school for me tomorrow i guess. Was just so upset i couldn't go for band today. I actually wanted to tell my mum i had fever after CCA. But I couldn't stand it anymore. Besides,I would not have been able to concentrate on my home econs test and might end up messing up/injuring myself or others and stuff like that. sigh. WORSE,there's band tomorrow tooo! D: This is so upsetting. grr. Many of my friends are sick too. Well,idk. But Pris had fever last week. Christopher and Zk didn't come to school today. maybe the weather is horrible. But idk. sigh... I don't think i have written properly in this post. Might have many mistakes in it. But I just can't concentrate nowww. D: Guess i better go rest now or something.
Bye. No pictures for this post. Too tired to find. ):




Sunday, April 4, 2010, 4:39 AM
Changed the music in the music player.

Hello. ^-^ I've changed the music in my music player. Yeah. If you're following me on twitter and you're an active user,then you must know that I just finished watching Spirited Away! again. For more than the fifth time. Haha. I just don't get sick of that show. The first time i watched it i think it was longgggg ago. So watching it again now makes me get some parts clearer. or not. hahaa. I watched the english version. The ones I watched were in...japanese? I guess. So there's always sub titles. But not the english ones. hmm... So once again,i'm going to put a quote from the movie at the end of this post. Haha. Maybe i should go watch the other Hayao Miyazaki films. Hopefully they're as good as spirited away! haha. And to think after all this time, No-face still scares me. Well a little. Oh and i think the first time i watched it or something i thought Haku was a girl. LMHO. But now i know for sure he's a guy. He's cool. I mean like HELLO?! He's a DRAGON!! lmho. But it's kinda sad that Chihiro has to leave in the end ): And like wow,people in their would must have been wondering what on Earth happened to that family. Hmm,if I were Chihiro,I don't know if i would even survive. hahaha. oh wells. Oh and i came across The Girl Who Lept Through Time. I've watched that before and i can remember the storyline but not every part detailed-ly. :l I remember it was really sad in the end. ahaha. Hmm...I've nothing much to say anymore...well,there's school tomorrow! Weekend's over today. aww man. And I have to wake up early for drills. But that's okay I guess...IF i'm not sleepy. ^-^ At least I get to talk a little bit more with my friends and stuff. ahahaha.
I think that's about it! I better go now. Have been using the computer for a very long time. :l Byeee!♥


"Once you meet someone,you never really forget them. It just takes awhile for your memories to return." -Spirited Away




Friday, April 2, 2010, 8:00 AM
havent bloggged.

Heeey. Once again,I have not blogged for ages. hahaha. wells. If you've been wondering what i've been up to, i've been thinking. alot. about things. But of course i'm not gonna talk about them all here. Well...maybe just one...here's a quote from this song Get Up,which is apparently by Superchick? LOL. Anyway,the quote is "If i get up i might fall back down again." yeah so that's how i kinda feel. about some things. :l  But here's another quote from the song and which i hope il'd be able to say soon. "I'm not afraid to fall,I've fallen many times.They laughed when I fell down But I have dared to climb,I'm not afraid to fall.I know I'll fall again,But I can win this in the end" so...yeah.... To be frank,i'm really afraid to fall back down again. But I don't wanna just "sit there" if you know what i mean. :( sigh. Idk...It's just a horrible feeling. And well,people can cause me to feel worse. By making stupid comments and i know im just suppose to ignore them but i can't help but think about them. :l sigh. Hurtful words can scar another person for what seems eternity. sigh. Hopefully i'll regain my confidence soon. :')  Hmm...I shall stop typing about this already anyway. Oh yeah,I have a new favourite "face"->   x) . hahaha. For some reason,i can't help but use it. :3 hehheh. Well....there's nothing much to blog about anyway. School's alright. Yesterday was pretty fun though.I mean,it was good too. For some reason i could actually concentrate during science lesson. hahaha. Talked a little to Ellie today. She was baking pastries! hahaha. I haven't practiced for my home econs practical test which is next week. Yikes. Wish me luck! Hahaha. &Hopefully someday N2 will go somewhere again. Maybe ice-skating? I feel like going ice-skating. Maybe cause i watched ice princess on channel five today. HEY,i was bored okay. Besides,it doesn't hurt to dream a little. ;) But i always seem to hesitate at the beginning and hold on to the railing. Once again,I can do it. I'm just afraid of falling. GAH. Okay,about this,i shall put a quote at the end of this post kay. haha. hmm. OH YEAH,yesterday was April fools day. hahaha. Lucky for me,I didn't fall for any pranks. Well maybe two. One by my uncle and the other by alexevans. hahaha. oh wells. I'm going out tomorrow with my family. Hope it'll be fun! Well,idk but we're going to EAT! so yay. ^-^ ...except i don't really wanna go where we're going. sigh. Hmm....nothing else i guess.  heh. Don't know if i'ld be blogging soon or not. wells. x)
Bye for now.♥
"We cannot discover new oceans until we have the courage to lose sight of the shore."-Muriel Chen





Friday, February 26, 2010, 4:53 AM
jealous cause i love you.

Hello! :D
I decided to use the Allign Center for once. It's rather boring seeing the same kind all the time. hmm. Well,i don't really have anything to type about. BUT! Tomorrow's my birthdayyy. yay! :D Oh and my instrument was spoilt and it got sent for repairing. So band had been boring. But the conductor said my instrument would be back next week. yay i guess. :} Hmm. oh yeah! The duckfamily changed to the sheepfamily. haha! And we had that family reunion lunch thing and during it we celebrated my birthday too. yay thanks you all nice people. Some of them even bought me this lovely cake. ^_^ After that we went to the playground. Took funny pictures of everyone hahaha. :D They're all in joey's phone heh. Cause i used her phone to take them. And she uploaded them on facebook hahaha. But everyone seems cool with that so,alright! :D mmm. Nothing much else to type about... I think i'll blog tomorrow or some day after my birthday. Don't think i'll be doing much but still... :) Okay,I shall stop typing now. Bye! :D

Some Lyrics From The Song I'm Listening To Right Now:
"I know Im overreacting a bit.
But Im jealous cause I love you, and Im sorry if I choke you.
But Im trying really hard to, to become that girl I know you want me to be.
But Im jealous; I dont mean to, I just fail every time when I see you.
I hope you're not mad, Im just jealous cause I love you."
Venke Knutson-jealous cause i love you